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Was feeling flat and mentally punishing myself for it accidentally then my boyfriend was like “well it’s probably your period” I had completely forgotten. Being traumatised by suicidal depression for years when I realise feeling empty is just menstruation it’s such a relief

Anyway people ontwitter have been saying they enjoy their period because it’s a reminder for them to take care of themselves and be nice and I’ve… never really done that. So I went out and got ingredients to make hot chocolate even tho it’s June

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thatsbutterbaby:

Figurine / Turkey / 1800-1899 CE / Bronze
Penn Museum

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latterlig:

sara yukiko mon, never too late to be who you might have been, 2022
ink on canvas in plastic sleeve

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shiva-mizani:

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Anonymous asks: it pains me to see how difficult financial burdens are. i miss spring journal, it inspired me crucially during a dark moment in lockdown and kept a flame in me alive for life, for beauty, for art. i value your thoughts and perspective and sensibilities. I wish you all the best for the future and hope the situation gets better

this means the world, thank you so much <3 I really hope I can continue to do something valuable that has the same effect

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I’ve unfortunately got another month of working 6 days a week back to back, yet in a couple months they can’t guarantee me even 6 days extra a month which means I don’t feel financially secure enough to leave my 3rd job because I will need it as back up soon, but I can’t commit to it now which is messing them around and they will just drop me because I have the better job that is asking me to work

God, I really just want one summer I don’t lose entirely to being at work, I want financial stability and work that doesn’t either take up my whole life or wear away at my happiness because of how irrelevant and mundane it is to my ambitions.

I’ve promised myself to stop trying to control my situation because it just leads to frustration and depression, accepting my reality, but that feels too much like giving up. I had a day off yesterday and was in such a good mood but coming to work today has deflated my happiness and optimism. I want to be able to reconcile relinquishing the illusion of control with finding a better situation for myself. I exerted so much pressure to escape this trap I ended up hurting myself during the process without even escaping.

I was writing this in my journal on my lunch break but I have to return to work so have to type and write this here for now

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Summertime is the perfect season to begin a new journal

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Anonymous asks: wait if ypure hot then why are you blogging??

lakevida:

unmedicated